The saying above is so true!!! But is so scary on both ends!!!! This is where you need to trust in the Lord. He's got you in the palm of his hand. He knows the beginning and the ending.
Thank you so much for not giving up on me!! It has been forever since I updated you on our situation. So long that I almost forgot my password! I had to use major brain power to remember.
Nine months later we still have these angels. The Lord has been so faithful to all of us. He has taking me on a growth journey too. Looking back at my first post I told you that I was angry. In most cases I do get there If its meth or some other drug that is tearing these families apart. But the anger is gone. Now I feel compassion for these people because they are dealing with a mental problem that is far beyond their control. Even on medication it is not enough to help them to be reuinited with their children. These kids LOVE their parents!! Most children do even if they do come from hair raising experiences.
The mom turned to me at the visitation center the other day and it spooked me. She said with the most non emotional expression and said "If we can't have our children I want you to have them". I was expecting her to break down crying at this point in order to talk about this subject. Instead I was the one who was biting my lip trying not to break down. I told her that I was not upset at her or her husband for this. I reassured her that we do love these kids so much. She acknowledged that her children love us and are attached to us. I lay awake at night and try to comprehend the disconnect I sensed from her that day. As a mom of 13 children I just dont get it and I have pitty for them. My heart wrenches for them. I do believe my heart hurts for them and their kids far more than their heart hurts for their children and themselves.
We found out that Little P had fluid behind her ear drum. Her ear drums were not working at all. She had been living in a tunnel for a very long time. Now she has tubes in her ears. I never thought I would be happy to hear her use her voice. She actaully talks at a volume where I have ask her to "talk quieter". Her appetite has improved and she hasn't been sick for awhile now. I feel like she is once and for all full of laughter, love and life!!
There is a reletive who lives in Minnasota who is interested in the four. They are actually leaving for two weeks in about a week to meet the reletives. If all goes well they will be the ones that adopt them. They have never met them before. The Lord knows where these kids need to be.
Anyway-- Im gonna end this post here but I really am going to try to post more. Please keep up in your prayers as our journey with these little ones is getting closer to the end.
