Allegations!! Oh My!!!!

It has been  6 days since my little guys left.  Our home feels quiet like there is something missing.  I am so happy they could be with family.  This is where they need to be but I miss them at the same time.

Today marks a day that I never thought would come.  I got a phone call from our certifier.  She said that there was an allegation that was said about me.  She said that it has been reported that I open hand slapped Little D (4 years old) a couple of times and several times I did this to Little K (3 years old).  This took my breath away and put my stomach on edge a little bit.  My heart dropped and I felt so hurt!! They saw these children everyday  -- wouldn't there be marks if this happened?  If your gonna say something tell them I chased you around the house trying to steal kisses when I know you hate them!! ABUSE!!! It took me a while to snap out of my own worry and hurt feelings but we are dealing with 3 and 4 year olds.  I think kids need to show their loyalty to the parents by speaking negative things about who ever they are with making their parents out to be the best however they do not know the consequences this has for me. As for me -- We are fine. I told my other kids about it and they had the same reaction as I did.   Our certifier has to ask us questions when allegations are made.  She just can't ignore these statements -- which I understand.  She said this is not going to be an issue and not to worry.  So I am going to do just that -- I am going to trust in the Lord about this. (Prov 3:5-6)

The grandmother wanted me to be my friend on Facebook however since this was just brought to my attention today I don't think I will do this.  I did send a private message to her letting her know that I know about the allegations and for her peace of mind -- I did nothing but love on those two boys while they were with me.  I did tell her that I am not angry but missing those boys and hope all is well.

Scary stuff!!

Our Final Days with Little D and Little K

Oh my gosh!!!!!!!!! The feeling I have right now is beyond any comprehension. First of all my two little precious boys were able to go to church with us one last time. Little D (4 years old) told his grandparents and his mom that they need to know more about Jesus! They don't know a lot about him so they have to go to church and learn more about the Lord! Out of the mouth of babes right? You tell em' Little D!!! The grandparents decided not to go however the mom did!! When I sit back and think about tonight I get goose bumps! When I found out they were going to go I prayed about tonight's message. Guess what... God delivered again! The message was about staying away from sin, how our sin effects our children, saying no to the world! Did our pastor know I had a convicted felon sitting beside me??? I praise the Lord for the seeds that were planted. I know she was listening. I couldn't help but watch from the corner of my eye at her responses to what our pastor was saying. Tonight when we got home I allowed the mom to put the boys in their bed. She got them dressed, tucked them in and then they insisted she prayed with them. She prayed with them what seemed like forever! She finally left the house and I sat there in amazement. I do pray for this little family! Lord keep them and protect them and may their faith grow strong. I know You have Little D's heart!! There are so many parents who are led to the Lord by their little children going to church. I pray this is one of them. Lord you are AMAZING!!! What a journey YOU have us on!

Notice of Departure -- They Will Be Leaving Tomorrow

Okay so I have a million praise reports to give!! i can't write them all down but I will share a few! I want to thank everyone who has reached out to my family to help my little guys settle in. Because of so many of you they have had a great experience here even though it was hard on them being away from every familiar face they have known. So thank you thank you thank you!!! Also while they have been here they have gone to church and have accepted Jesus in their heart!! They pray before every meal and before they go to bed each night. The 4 year old constantly asks me about Jesus and also tells me about BIG God is!!! He says "Did you know God is so big he just thinks of something on BAM!!! its created!! God thought of a tree and BAM! there was a tree!" He says it with such amazement and excitement that it makes me wonder why aren't we like this little one full of excitement and awe about what our God can do and does for us on a daily basis! What happened to us? Anyway - My little guys will be back with their family either today or tomorrow. I will be sad but also over joyed because I know their grandparents LOVE them and they are safe with them. Prayer request please!!! The grandparents and mom and my two little guys will be at church tonight!!!!! They have never gone before!!! They can see Little D's enthusiasm over going to church. They want to see what he is so excited for. Our GOD is BIG guys!!!!!


30 days later after they came to our home................

Just got the official word that my boys will be leaving tomorrow morning after the court hearing. They will be headed back to Florida to be with the their grandparents. I decided to stay home tomorrow with the boys instead of going to the court hearing. Maybe I can get in a few snuggles and sneak a few kisses (they don't like kisses) before they go. Little D and Little K -- I will never ever forget you! You have made an inprint in my soul. One day we WILL see each other again. Here, there or in the air! I love you!!!!