Someone asked me the other day what I feel when someone asks me how many children I have and I reply with "9". It made me stop and think because the funny thing is I have been pondering this thought myself.
The word that comes to my head is "proud" however that is not the word I am looking for. I am not
"proud" that I have 9 children. I guess the feeling that I have is "full" or "content". I am "satisfied". I love my life. The Lord has blessed me richly.
I think getting away for a couple days really made me realize how much I do love ALL of my little blessings.
I have really seen a change in my 10 year old son over the past month. This adoption has not been easy on him by any means. For awhile he cringed every time one of the little girls wanted to give him a hug or a kiss on the cheek. He still has the view of girls having cooties. Not that the little ones have cooties but the only one who could give him a kiss on the cheek is his mommy. Yes -- ME! As much as I love this I thought it was important that he makes sure he shows these little ones that he loves them like a brother loves his sister. I brought up that for a long time now his feelings get so hurt when his older brother won't hug him or show affection to him. Joshua is a very lovable boy. To him he feels rejected when he is pushed away. Since that talk with Joshua he has been such a loving brother to these little girls. They go up to him and give him the biggest hugs and he hugs them right back just as big as what they gave him. Every night they want to give Joshua and hug and a kiss on the cheek. Joshua gives each one a kiss on the cheek and he tells them that he loves them. My heart turns to mush when I see this.
He asked me the other day if he can wait for the bus by himself when little K gets off. He said that he wants them to know that he cares for them and that he loves them so much. He said that he remembers how bad it hurt not to be hugged my his older siblings and he does not want them to feel that way.
He did ask me "what happens if they do go back to their real mom and dad?" I explained to him that that is always a risk until this whole thing is final and it could very well happen. The thing we have to remember is that we are teaching them how to love one another and we love them completely regardless of where they will be in 5 years. Our job is to share the love of Jesus and prepare them the best we can with what time we have with them -- all the while praying like crazy that God will preform a miracle and have them be with us forever. Josh told me that when he gets older he would love adopt one day. I love this boy!!
I have heard people who do foster care state don't get attached to the children that you have in your home because when it comes time for them to leave you will be heart broken. Well all I have to say to that is that is a bunch of garbage. These children need to be loved COMPLETELY!! If I get hurt -- I get hurt. These kids can tell if you treat them differently from your biological children and they do want to be part of you. So my advise to you is to give them the best gift you can and love them to pieces while you have them. That might be the only true love they experience.
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