Happy 6th Birthday to Little K!!

Today we celebrated Little K's 6th birthday.  Its hard to believe she has been with us for 9 months.  Wow that is how long a mother carries her baby before giving birth.  I remember that scared little girl acting so calm getting out of the van and looking at me with a straight face and asking me "mom, can I see my room?" And then looking back on when she first entered our home and to see where we are now I can say -- I never want to go back there again!  She has made so many positive changes over the last past nine months.

 

I remember disciplining her and there was no reaction.  She could stand in the corner for an hour or more with no response.  Don't get me wrong I would not just put her in the corner for an hour and leave her there.  After being there for 5 or 10 minutes asking if she was ready to come out she would not respond.  So I had her stand there for another 5 or 10 minutes and I would ask her the same thing again.  No-- response.  We would keep doing this.  I would get tired! I would turn her around so she could look at me in the eye.  She would close her eyes and not look at me.  You wouldn't see her cry or be really happy.  There was a major disconnect.  There were times when I thought we had demon possessed child on our hands and I would cry to my husband!! Well after much prayer and LOVE she is not demon possessed! I was trying so hard to understand her but constantly there were walls every where I turned.

 

We are still dealing with a number of issues but I can't tell you the joy I feel inside when I do believe we are conquering the Reactive Attachment Disorder.  There are some children that live a life time dealing with this.  Now when she gets in to trouble she does cry and show tears -- Praise the Lord!!  When she is excited she burst forth with an overwhelming joy!!! Praise the Lord!  She LOVES to cuddle up next to me on the couch. Praise the Lord!  She begs me to rock her in my chair while I rub her arms and stroke her hair and kiss her face. Praise the Lord! She says she loves me -- and means it!!!. Praise the Lord!!!  

 

We finally have her appointment with CDRC (Child Development Rehabilitation Center) in Eugene.  PRAISE THE LORD!!!! I started this process back in August and they finally called me last week.  Little K is STILL not potty trained.  When I tell you we have tried everything -- I am not lying!  I have done everything but pound my head on the wall and that I have been tempted.  I know Little K is a complex little girl. 

 

Regardless of how difficult our journey has been -- I can tell you that I love this little girl as if I gave birth to her.  All this garbage that we are dealing with is only making our love for her grow stronger and stronger!!  I pray that through our journey I am able to help someone else who is going through a similar situation.

 

Happy Birthday Sweet Pea!!!